Down

Been kind of down these few days, but I'm positive that things'll be different soon. Real soon.. I always give myself "deadlines" to meet. On one perspective, it's constantly stressing myself out. However, on another note, it's simply giving myself certain restrictions- good or bad, no one knows. For all I know, I can be restricting myself from immersing into more misery.

It was a good, carefree six months. I really hate this, but I'm only human. Powerless against all these.. natural phenomenon kind of thing. Emotions can be controlled, but feelings can't. How true.

I've always thought that heavy metal music was nonsense. I didn't know how to appreciate heavy metal music until recently. Avenged Sevenfold is a real inspiring band. My favourite song by them is So Far Away though.

I'm pretty sure I can get over this. After all, so much have happened. I know myself deep down, that this isn't possible. The thing about being a realist, that is. Other than this, the holidays have been quite an eventful one (excluding today) because of all the activities.

I would pretty much call today a special day. Not that today means anything special to me.. It's just that the date is kind of.. cool. I mean, how many 11/12/13s would there be? But again, it's a planless day so yeah, not so special after all.

I need to breathe.

Blend

Oh, what a title! Blend? Yes, blend. I just feel well, kind of grouchy? I don't know. Honestly, what's this feeling that I'm feeling right now? The only thing I know is that I hate this feeling that I'm feeling and that's all.

People often say, "Truth Hurts". I know that. Some years ago, I experienced what people meant by "Truth Hurts" and the sucky thing now is that I'm experiencing it again? Somewhat. I'm confused. But there's something that I'm sure of: you don't feel the same.

Ok well, there's no point for a super long post. I have no idea what I'm doing for the whole of today. I'm totally.. blur today. Like heck, am I even awake? I feel so tired, grouchy and empty for no apparent reason. Literally feeling like shit.

But alas, I still believe that tomorrow'll be better!