I'd Lie

Spent the whole day out with my mum today. There really ain't much to do these days. To make things worse, I NEED to keep myself occupied so that my mind won't float too far away and think of all the unnecessary things that will cause me to feel all down and out again. All those negative feelings just won't stop bugging me. I'm so exhausted, mentally. But this time, it's not like the answers aren't there. The answers themselves, they are there. It's just that maybe I can't accept them yet I guess? Maybe I'm just not good enough. It's not like I don't know what to do next. I know EXACTLY what I have to do but I just can't seem to do it. 

I honestly can't wait for school to start. Once school starts, I'll be busy with school and I doubt I'll have the time to "think excessively". 

Argh, forget it. Some pictures to fill up the spaces..

I just feel really lost at times. What you're doing now- it's making me miss you even more. I'm sorry that I've overestimated myself once again. I THOUGHT I could do it, without you.

& if they ask me if I love you, I'd Lie.

Words Left Unsaid

It's been some time, folks. To be brutally honest, I didn't have the mood to blog. I wonder why I even started blogging. I started blogging way back in time, when I was still in primary school. Well of course, the content of the blog posts were... literally, shit.

Holidays. Long holidays. Well, I went to Korea again. Certainly, many things aren't the same anymore. I didn't visit all the same places and even if I did, those places changed rather significantly. Went to Jeju island, Gwangju and Seoul and the experiences were great. Breathtaking views of Mother Nature on the mountains, picking tangerines in tangerine farms, playing on super exciting rides that gives people adrenaline rushes and of course, I've met new friends and I count myself really lucky because all the teenagers are of about the same age, ranging from 13 to 19 years of age. The best thing was that we clicked real well and the 10 days in Korea and Shanghai went by in the blink of an eye.

Never have I thought that there'll be no turning back. I thought I was strong enough and disciplined enough to back off. But oh well. Seems like I was wrong. I shouldn't regret what I've done and all but I'm sincere in what I do and say. Everything's real.

I'm in need of a miracle.
I'm waiting for a miracle to happen.